Posted on May 2, 2007 in Cats
Yes, I found more. Just a few. OK, only three and a link to a web site.
[tags]cats[/tags]
Posted on May 2, 2007 in Bipolar Disorder PTSD
This is what sucks. If you have bipolar disorder, those who don’t have it wait for you to explode. (This is unlikely. You are more inclined to harm yourself than others.) If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, those who don’t have it wait for you to explode. (If your flashbacks do not demand military training, this is unlikely. You’re more likely to curl into a ball and scream scream scream.) This is why you have to depend on your own self. It may be why you choose not to have many friends. This is what sucks.
[tags]mental illness,ptsd,bipolar disorder[/tags]
Posted on May 1, 2007 in Cats
Mission Viejo squinted from beneath a silver hat at the sea as I rode shotgun back from dinner. I’d given up on Virginia. The days of imagining her mew, seeing her on the deck were over. We’d pasted our last posters on the other side of Santiago Canyon Road, redid a few that had come off in the wind. Talked to neighbors who’d seen the posters but not the cat. Chased down a few leads and saw nothing.
I shoved all of this out of my head as we wound our way through the condominium complex and into our garage. A neighbor who works as a vet tech unloaded sports equipment from her call. I talked to her about our lost baby. Then climbed the stairs to our loft….
No, this is not a story with a happy ending.
I’m left with trying to understand why, despite a dearth of moisture over the winter months, two of my cactuses sport crowns of red and pink flowers.
[tags]cats[/tags]
Posted on May 1, 2007 in PTSD
It’s a legacy that abusive parents teach us: attention must be paid no matter how abusive the insistence may be.
Posted on April 30, 2007 in Cats Humor?
If you have a mood to improve and the time for a few videos, here you go:
* These are to notify my wife that she hasn’t seen these yet.
[tags]cats,videos,links,humor[/tags]
Posted on April 29, 2007 in Psych Wards
This psycho-schmo gets Internet access while locked up! I’m jealous!
There’s a good read to be had there
Posted on April 29, 2007 in Cats War on Terrier
A member of the Feline Intelligence Agency (FIA) prepares for the infiltration of the office of the Terrier in Chief.
[tags]cats,photos,war on terrier,humor[/tags]
Posted on April 28, 2007 in Bipolar Disorder Privacy Violence
The post-Virginia Tech fallout has me thinking hard — along with half of Congress and much of the nation — about what we should do about the gun problem. Long ago, I came to the conclusion that the strife over guns was mostly due to the failure of both sides to understand the needs of the other: for example, a friend in Texas told me that it took 30 minutes for a sheriff to arrive at her house after a 911 call. Then there were the numerous stories of innocent and not so innocent bystanders being shot in our cities.
But this essay is about what people are thinking of doing after Virginia Tech. We “mental defectives”, the reasoning goes, should not be trusted with guns. In my own case — that of a bipolar with suicidal wishes — I agree. A gun makes killing myself way too easy and irreversible.
I don’t like the idea of guns being readily available anyways, so asking me if I want my right to bear arms being taken away doesn’t fit the terms of the debate as it is now in Congress. Congressman want to limit the availability of guns to “mental defectives”. That’s what they are calling me in their draft legislation and I don’t like it. Just what the bipolar community needs these days is a big sign saying “Stupid” or “Dangerous” around our necks. “Hi there. I’m mentally defective. Do you want to have dinner with me?”
Mental health groups are sure to rise against this language. I can already hear the whine of conservatives who want to hold on to their precious argot, denying all the way that there is anything offensive. Hear them mutter “Oh, those mentally ill people are going off again. Just pass the legislation and be done with it. They will be upset no matter what we do.”
The question of what constitutes a “mental defective” follows on this rudeness. Are all bipolars, depressives, and schizoaffectives going to be classed under this? Or are they going to rely on a “danger to self and others” criteria such as is used for involuntary commitment in California and many other states? Who gets to say that you are a danger to self or others? Your psychiatrist? A police officer? An obsessive civil servant down in the basement of the county courthouse who voted for Bush for reasons unknown to normal human consciousness, who thought you might be a little kooky? How will we fix mistakes?
Having declared my reservations, I’d like to propose something: an advance directive for gun ownership. Now that I am stable, I know that I don’t want myself buying a gun when I am in episode. So why not allow me to send a form in to the ATF saying “Joel Sax does not want you selling a gun to Joel Sax” so that I can’t walk down to the local gun shop and buy my very own suicide weapon on demand? This safeguard would be put in place by me for me. There’s a question of cancellation — what if I decided to take up target shooting? for example — but I think for the most part this may be the most sensible response to the Virginia Tech episode. It may not save us from the kook who comes in by the door but it can I believe get each of us thinking about firearms in our life. We can’t afford not to.
[tags]gun control, Virginia Tech shootings, privacy, gun regulation, mental illness, bipolar disorder[/tags]
Posted on April 27, 2007 in War on Terrier
Shocking evidence that Terriers and their sympathizers have resorted to aliurophagy:
Kyped from Can I Haz a Cheezburger
[tags]cats,war on terrier[/tags]
Posted on April 25, 2007 in Confidentiality Conservatives Paranoids Privacy Violence
This is all very telling about the kind of government conservatives want. It’s a small, sneaky government that does nothing for most of its citizens and keeps tabs on their actions through a secret police network
Posted on April 24, 2007 in Reading
At three in the morning I sat in the dark looking out of the window down at the square where the fountain is not and I thought about the turtles. The essence of it is that they can find something and they are not being allowed to do it. What more can you do to a creature, short of killing it, than prevent it from finding what it can find? How must they feel? Is there a sense in them of green ocean, white surf, and hot sand? Probably not. but there is a drive in them to find it as they swoop in their golden-green light with their flippers clicking against the glass as they turn. Is there anything that can be done about it? My mind is not an organizational one….
There is no place for me to find. No beach, no breeding grounds. Do I owe the turtles more or less because of that? Is everyone obliged to help those who have it in them to find something? I bought a second-hand mathematical book, I don’t know why, on self-replicating automata. Not robots but mathematical models. The book said that random search could not account for evolution. Something evidently wants there to be finding. Time’s arrow points one way only. Even the moment just past cannot be returned to.
— Russell Hoban
How can we ever find for determinism or freedom of the will if we can’t reverse time and run things through once more?
Posted on April 23, 2007 in Hatred Stigma
If you follow the blogs of bipolar and borderline sufferers, you’ll have noticed something: we haven’t been commenting on what happened.