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Studs Terkel is Dead

Posted on October 31, 2008 in Milestones Reflections

square498One of my secret dreams was to have been interviewed by Studs Terkel. Everybody, I think, wants to talk to someone who brings out their visions as they have never been brought out before. Where the keyboard fails me, I long for the right questions to be asked, for more space for expression and involution than is allowed by questionnaires or micro-blogging. There’s far more to be said than in the 140 characters allowed by Twitter. To build a line like “Who built the pyramids?” you need more than a clever catchphrase artist. You need to be coaxed, to be honored. Studs knew how to do that.

The news set me aback. I thought about the kind of American Studs Terkel would have found in me. The answer: one who finds himself teaching adults to read, participating in support groups, and, soon, running an English conversation group for non-native speakers. I’ve been spending my life helping people become more accepted in America which is ironically something I am very poor at. But they say those who can’t be Americans teach others to be Americans. That’s my story and it oozes like mashed parsnips. Goodbye Studs. You might have figured out how my lost American dream could have been found again. There won’t be another like you for some time.

Missing Political Stuff

Posted on October 31, 2008 in Campaign 2008

square497If you have been missing my links to political videos and articles, please ring me up at my Facebook Account –> gazissax at spamarrest dot com. Be sure to tell me who you are….

Not A Terrible Beauty, but A Transient One

Posted on October 28, 2008 in Campaign 2008 Reflections

Too long a sacrifice
Can make a stone of the heart.
O when may it suffice?

Easter 1916, W.B. Yeats

square496It’s getting towards the end of the campaign and frankly I am getting tired of all the necessary posturing that comes with getting your candidate elected, your side of an initiative adopted. There is a terrible beauty that comes out of all of it as we slash through to the real issues that the baiting attempts to cover, but afterwards what? If McCain, I think I can go pretty much onwards as I have except for certain hardships if his health care proposal becomes law. If Obama, I may be pressed to know what kind of different personality to adopt to conform with Change.

For a moment here, I find myself in league with the McCain supporters who hear this word and flinch. But I am not filled with rage and fear, but a quiet emptiness. Just how am I supposed to change? Will an Obama-filled world really be that much better or will I just go about being Joel as I have?

This isn’t to say that the campaign hasn’t been inspiring — it’s given me something to work towards in which I am not alone even when the scope of my support cannot cover the social activities of the campaign such as calling or going to debate-watching parties. I’ve made a small place for myself posting links to articles on Twitter and the Orange County for Obama mailing list. I am appreciated, at least on the latter where it isn’t assumed that I am a robot or disruptive of old friendships. But this all ends November 5 regardless of the outcome. Then it’s back to just tutoring adults to read and helping people in my bipolar support group. No great changes for me. I’ll still dedicate myself where I can, encouraging others because I have not been able to rise above the disease and the failures. If you check my mood chart you will see I am not depressed. I do not see an end to the world or dark clouds. I’ll sit down with a dvd of Lost Broadway tonight and enjoy it, laughing where it feels right, crying in other spots because I have been moved. The terrors of the campaign don’t possess me so much as to deny me the pleasant things. There’s just not a sense of afterwards yet, of an afterwards which for me is real change.

I’ve voted, so the game’s nearly up. I won’t repeat the mistake of 2004 when I went to Las Vegas to help Kerry, spun out of control, and ended up two months later in the hospital. But because of who I am, what afflicts me, and what I cannot do, this election won’t affect me much unless John McCain gets in and health insurance becomes a taxable item. All the burst of promise won’t result in a dramatic turnaround here atop the fossil sand dune that is my neighborhood. So what has all this been for? A jolt of activity that has been good for morale, I’d say. Changes for people I know who have been suffering awfully under Bush. Not a terrible beauty like it is for some, but a transient one.

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The World Turned Right Side Up

Posted on October 23, 2008 in Anxiety Campaign 2008 Depression Uncertainty

square495At the British surrender at Yorktown, the band played “The World Turned Upside Down”. Then as now a transfer of power took place. Certainly among the Americans — many of whom had been fighting for years — there must have been a difficult period: how do you go from being a warrior to a citizen? There were issues to be resolved such as the status of those who had supported the British, but nothing was so important and devastating to the morale of those men as the question of how to be in this new world.

The rush of history has my mind put in a blender for reconstitution. For the last several years — dating from before Bush became president — progressives have been staving off hateful attacks from the right. They are at their worst today: we are accused of being unpatriotic, of not loving our country. It’s the whole Bush Adminstration plus the Clinton impeachment concentrated into a bitter slushee that we are forced to swallow.

I have watched as some of the more sensitive of those on the Obama side have devolved into one of three moods: anxiety, depression, and grandiosity. The anxiety is easy to understand: the election is not yet won and the Republicans have been filling our ears and eyes with false information and character assassinations. If they can’t steal the election, they have been engaging in shenanigans designed to narrow the gap so the Democrats can’t claim a mandate for change. We are just not there yet.

Likewise, the grandiosity is easy to understand. We’re about to win, it seems, and win big. Therefore we are the best people in the world, chosen by God or the Universe or common sense. We know everything, can solve everything. So these among us stand on pedestals and lecture our peers on the way it is going to be. Doggoneit, they say, we have the key to convincing the most diehard Republicans to join us. We are unstoppable.

I figure I’ll just have to live with that for a few years. Believe me, it will be as insufferable for a few of we progressives as well as the defeated right, if for different reasons. Reality will click in and these will either come to walk with the rest of us on or fall into the ennui from listening to their own voices without insight.

Which brings us to depression. How can that be afflicting progressives at a time like this? I’ll tell you: first, the anxiety wears us down. Exhaustion claims us. So we lose all pleasure, all sense of accomplishment. There is also, second, the exhaustion of feeling obligated to answer every attack slung out by the McCain/Palin machine.

The third cause of depression stems from uncertainty. Now that we are about to win, what kind of political personality are we going to adopt? Since the late 90s, that has been one that constantly attacks the failed and repulsive premises of the neoconservatives. It’s been fun, but soon, with responsibility, that fun is going to stop. The problem with Republican rule is that it has been so founded on negativism, it failed to create positive institutions or freedoms. The same must not be allowed to happen in a Democratic era — though we may wisely be ready to fend off attacks as we strive to solve the crises that the Bush Administration has left behind. But change in political power is going to mean change in our attitudes. We are going to have to become compromisers, optimists. And some folks are as unready to make that change as Palin is to be vice president.

I am taking the following steps to mind my spiritual transition. First, for the duration of the election, I am keeping my consumption of television news to a minimum, which means I’m not watching it in my home and avoiding it outside. All the bells and whistles of your typical television news screen agitate me. The reporters spout out opinions. Inside their opinions are little assumptions that eat at me like acid.

Second, I am making time to do things that are fun. Walking the dog. Going to the beach. Relaxing with good books. Taking pictures and looking over what I have done previously.

Third, I am sharing every bit of positive news I can find. I am also seeking out news that is not about the election, funny videos, etc.

Fourth, I’ve made myself a promise: when and if Obama wins — yes, I am sticking to the conditional at this moment — I am going out to buy a new American flag and hang it outside to celebrate that I am once again included in this country.

The world will be turned upside down which means right side up for the first time since Ronald Reagan took office in 1980. That is something to cheer for, something to shed the shackles of low moods for. Yet, after the cheering, must come reality. This vote is not about making every man a king, every woman a queen, but about becoming citizens instead of serfs. The notion to come is equality, which is about dignity. That will have to be reforged in the new fires of an unexpected community.

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Moose!

Posted on October 20, 2008 in Campaign 2008

The moose says it all:

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Joe Ain’t No Plumber

Posted on October 16, 2008 in Campaign 2008

Mr. Wulzerbacher’s notoriety has raised the ire of Tom Joseph, business manager for Local 50 of the United Association of Plumbers, Steamfitters, and Service Mechanics, who claimed that Mr. Wulzerbacher didn’t undergo any apprenticeship training.

“When you have guys going out there with no training whatsoever, it’s a little disreputable to start with,” Mr. Joseph said. “We’re the real Joe the Plumber.”

square494Seems Joe the Plumber not only doesn’t have a plumber’s license (he has to have his own to practice), but he has never undergone apprenticeship and he’s a tax cheat.

Details unearthed at Daily KOS further suggest that he already has his own small business empire.

Or he makes only about $40,000 a year.

This man has lied to the nation. I would hate to be one of his customers.

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Why I Will Not Watch the Debate

Posted on October 15, 2008 in Anxiety Bipolar Disorder Campaign 2008

square493I am not going to watch the debate tonight because I don’t know how it will end. Sure I trust Obama to be strong, but I wonder if the American people will see McCain for what he is when he pulls up the garbage truck and dumps his load of calumny about Robert Ayers and ACORN. In other words, I don’t trust myself to be strong. I will be clutching a pillow and screaming into it for much of the show anyways along with most of the bipolars I know — at least the medicated, aware ones. Being sicker is not my idea of a better America for me.

I have no desire to see McCain bring his shit, baked in the heat of the Arizona sun and flipped onto the hot stove of his campaign committee just to make sure that every ounce of compassionate moisture is gone to the podium forming a slough for everyone to walk in. He’s angry, he’s scared, he’s behind. That makes him a mad dog eager to take a piece out of the Hope that Obama has generated.

The polls say that the negative campaigning hurts McCain. But the Republicans are saying “Repeat this mantra: Ayers, ACORN, Ayers, ACORN, Ayers” until the base froths at the mouth and attacks the Democrats standing in the lines at the polls with chants of “Kill Obama”.

McCain and Palin have scared the hell out of me so much that I have sent for my absentee ballot. As far as Election Day goes, I am going to be a cipher. As far as the debate, I am going to be reading or eating out or watching videos with my wife. I can’t take feeling myself rise to my feet and screaming at the top of my voice “You evil fool!” and to the People “Don’t let him mislead you! He’ll take you to hell!” No, I am better off without these passions. My cries will carry only as far as the glass of my television screen and the neighbors will think me strange.

So let me spare me the strain. The nation will go on. I have done my part to set it to a better course.

Yep, I am a wimp, but I vote.

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The Name Game

Posted on October 14, 2008 in Campaign 2008 Video

How do you counter the “Barack Hussein Obama” taunts of the dittoheads? Put this on your website and be sure your friends see it:

See why this NYT blogger thinks Britney Spears is “more civilized” than Sarah Palin.

And shiver at the revelation that McCain’s transition team leader worked for Saddam Hussein.

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Foehn

Posted on October 13, 2008 in Weather

Here are a couple of photos illustrating what the wind did in these parts:

This might be called an atmosphere shot. You can see the dust being dragged off the mountains and, if you squint, the branches that have been ripped down from the trees.

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Look carefully for the spot where a branch was ripped off this tree. It fell into some hedges, damaging nothing though it was about fifteen feet long and heavy.

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Triggers Pointed at Each Other

Posted on October 13, 2008 in Anxiety Campaign 2008 Weather

All this has left me with a steel cable of tension running up the back side of my neck. These are Xanax moments….

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Treating Health Care Like Banking?

Posted on October 12, 2008 in Campaign 2008 Insurance

square491This little series from the Institute for America’s Future has appeared here before. I found the title of this one catchy and hope you will take the time to read it and think. John McCain and Sarah Palin will damage our nation beyond repair after eight years of W. Friends do not let friends vote for them:

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The Greatest of These is Love

Posted on October 11, 2008 in Campaign 2008 Hatred Sexuality

square490Proposition 8 is an attempt to make gay marriage unconstitutional in the state of California. It’s close and we need everyone voting to pull that lever against it.

There are a lot of gongs ringing for the measure. Fill yourself with compassion for those who love and see it through to ensure that it does not pass.

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