Posted on April 29, 2011 in Addictions Bipolar Disorder Pulmonary
Should ending the smoking habit be a key aim of therapy?
Posted on April 28, 2011 in Body Language Neurology Psychotropics
The pain behind my eye used to be excruciating. Unlike my gut pain, this wasn’t a burning pain but a minie ball lodged deep between my eye and the socket bone.
Posted on April 28, 2011 in Morals & Ethics Scoundrels
The Koch Brothers are on the defensive with a bright new campaign describing all the charitable causes to which they are giving money. “How can you possibly say we are inhumane (even though we financed the Tea Party which is now out to destroy Medicare and Social Security along with collective bargaining and unions?)” You’re giving part of your millions to help others while investing more to make yourself more money through lobbying efforts and hot houses like the Cato Foundation and the Foundation for American Growth is how.
Jesus set a high standard for charity:
As Jesus started on his way, a man ran up to him and fell on his knees before him. “Good teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”
18 “Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone. 19 You know the commandments: ‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, you shall not defraud, honor your father and mother.’[a]”
20 “Teacher,” he declared, “all these I have kept since I was a boy.”
21 Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”((The full passage is Mark 10:17-31))
Everything. Not just a piece of a vast empire, but everything. Then we can start talking salvation. Christians, take note and do not be fooled by the Koch Brothers. They are nowhere near meeting the level of commitment that is expected of this passage.
But let’s take a kindlier tack. What could the Koch Brothers do to start meriting a little more respect from the average American? Not God, — certainly not one of their paid lobbyists — but a member of the 98%:
Do this, Charles and David Koch, if you want to rescue this country from the economic crisis and the shadow of fascism that you have cast upon it.
And if they don’t, America, vote them and all their candidates down down down to the hell of powerlessness.
Posted on April 25, 2011 in Depression Fear Mania Stigma
A friend of mine who is a mental health professional in Germany and I often watch a certain social media site for signs of distress among the denizens. Recently, I dropped her a note about one fellow who struck me as being on the proverbial roller coaster. She shuddered when she checked him out and told me that she was sure that he was going to be explosive.
All this causes me to look back at my own behavior when I was in extremis. The world looks as if it is always about to teeter and dump you and anyone close by into a pit. Some people find this fascinating. They hover around you, watching you as you rant and rave about your unsteadiness and the threat the world poses toward you. They are often nice people, kind people. You think they don’t know you, they can’t possibly know you. And their proximity adds to your sense of [[Koyaanitsqatsi]]. ((In Hopi: “crazy life, life in turmoil, life out of balance, life disintegrating, a state of life that calls for another way of living”))
They laugh at your jokes. They find you interesting. The edge of an episode cleaves your consciousness. You are beginning to repeat yourself. What can you do to right things again so that you can resume stability? The problem, your troubled mind jumps to conclude without reasoning, is that you are dangerous. So you have to show them that you are genuinely and truly mad. You launch into what is called the Scary Guy Defense.
Thanks to your mania or mixed state, you have already emitted a series of cues that suggest you are losing it. You raise your voice. You shake. You wave your arms. Words pour out of your mouth at an erratic pace. The lids of your eyes roll back and the orbits bulge out. The euphoria squares your shoulders and tenses every muscle sliding across every bone in your body. A terrible strength props you up. And it seems fit to exaggerate these symptoms because you want people to run away, because nothing scares you more than the prospect of your body flipping blindly about and striking one of the gentle ones. You pull on a monster mask because you don’t want to hurt anyone. ((One time I got into an email exchange with a Berkeley student who shared my interest in [[Stephen Sondheim]]. With each long letter, I felt encroached upon. So I suggested she come down to Palo Alto to have a threesome with my wife. It worked. She never contacted me again.))
Posted on April 24, 2011 in Roundup
The word liberal comes from the word free. We must cherish and honor the word free or it will cease to apply to us. -Eleanor Roosevelt
As I write this, it is Holy Saturday and I am giving hard thought to the state of the nation. Traditionally, this is the day of the [[harrowing of hell]], when Christ paid Satan a visit and made him remember just who was boss in the Universe. Lately, I feel that it is the good people who have been harrowed by the hell-spawn of the Tea Party. It seems to me in this age of megachurches that the number of True Christians has dwindled. Witness how some preachers quote the atheist [[Ayn Rand]] approvingly from their pulpits and speak against the Word. Others, too, feel this despair. Agnostic me thinks this is a fine tragedy that we are in when people fail to trust in God and choose instead to take the side of the worldly and the wealthy. What will [[Easter]] bring? I just have to remember how dark things looked for [[Dietrich Bonhoeffer]] and [[Martin Niemöller]] in the middle of the [[Nazi]] repression. Is there rebirth due? Will we rediscover the wisdom of the [[Gospels]]? Sorry if I scare my compassionate atheist friends with this, but as a freethinker, I may reflect on these things.
Indian Paintbrush 4/20/2011
Posted on April 22, 2011 in Hypocrites Liberals & Progressives
Since 1980, when I voted for Anderson instead of Jimmy Carter, I have followed the rule that unless the man or woman the Democrats elect is Adolf Hitler, I will support her or him over the Republicans. That is my personal narcissistic contribution to the defeat of good Democrats. But I have seen white male progressives repeat the act over and over again. And they do it when it is most critical that they don’t.
The first time was when a fine Senator named [[John Tunney]] (father of [[Robin Tunney]]) was defeated by [[S.I. Hayakawa]] back in the seventies. Tunney’s crime was that he had withdrawn an early health care reform bill. Otherwise, his record was exemplary. But the white male progressives who first ran [[Tom Hayden]] against him and then either voted for Hayakawa in the final race or didn’t vote at all saw the health care move as unforgivable. An example had to be set so that future Democrats would understand that you don’t do this kind of thing. So Tunney went down and California was stuck with a conservative who spent his six years sleeping in the Senate chamber, earning him the sobriquet “The [[Sominex]] Kid”.
They did it again, with Carter and Anderson, then again with [[Al Gore]] in 2000. You can thank them for ensuring that [[George W. Bush]] became our president. You can also thank them, in part, for the results of the year 2010 election when many worthy Democrats went down to defeat at the hands of the Tea Party. And some are talking about doing it all over again even though Social Security and Medicare are both on the block.
The style of white male progressive of whom I speak is to throw tantrums — perhaps we should refer to them as Tantrumists — and not brook any discussion.
Perhaps because of their affluent backgrounds, Tantrumists don’t worry about economic matters such as these. They can ride out the major disasters in a way that the rest of us can’t. They keep hoping that one day society will shut down and they will will rise to power, worshiped as all-saving and sanctifying deities. Do one thing wrong, make one compromise and they feel that you have betrayed them.
But there’s another angle: does this make Democrats listen to them more? I think Leftist Democrats do, but they peeve Centrists off because of the no-compromise matters. It must all be done now whether or not you have the votes. If it is not done now, they will work towards your political doom. Who wants to listen to someone who will not hear a word you say or engage in discussion that is not entirely accusatory?
Let’s also not forget their tendency to abuse or to limit their political activity to flaming people on billboards. They claim not to be racist, but they attack other whites as inbred and stupid. And they are not there when minorities and women truly need them such as is the case now. The higher the price that will be paid by Republican victory, the more strident the Tantrumists are.
I am white, male, and a progressive. I do not understand the testosterone poisoning that impels Tantrumists to fling the whole Center and Left onto the sword that Right wing extremists gleefully hold out for them. In these times what we need is unity so that the Tea Party may be defeated. But the Tantrumists would rather that the Tea Party triumph again and destroy everything than acknowledge one good, make one tentative compromise to save citizen rights and security from the plutocrats.
We can’t afford this kind of narcissism in 2012. That is why I am calling them out.
Posted on April 20, 2011 in Bipolar Disorder OCD Reflections Spirituality and Being Uncertainty
When they happen, I am a slave not to society, but to an odd sense of self.
Posted on April 18, 2011 in Activity Anxiety Routine
Lately I have been waking to alarms and excursions of horror.
Posted on April 18, 2011 in Anxiety Imagination
Hands open, palms upward as I call the paradise within to mind. Oh that it were tangible, real!
Posted on April 17, 2011 in Roundup
Of all the strategies, wishing, is the worst. ~Andrew Young
My wife and I are keeping a running chart of our predictions. This week I scored a point: the Republicans voted to abolish Medicare. She says this doesn’t count until they actually get it past the Senate which they will never do. But in this land where freedom of speech means that significant political points of view won’t get heard thanks to the landslide of corporate media and [[robocalls]], I have my doubts. The founders most certainly did want to level the playing field, to prevent anyone from preventing opposing points of view from being heard. The mistake they made was that they limited the restriction to the government. Now we know the corporations need even tighter controls.
Drake 4/11/2011
Posted on April 15, 2011 in Morals & Ethics Reading Scoundrels Stigma
Just what did Rand want to do with all the people who didn’t measure up to her “heroic” ideal?
Posted on April 15, 2011 in Bipolar Disorder Poems Stigma
I have a hockey mask in my closet ((Of course, I don’t. I’m not Jason.))
When I get mad, I murder. ((Studies show that the mentally ill are more likely to be the victims of violence than to commit acts of violence.))
Ups and downs are normal. ((But not like I have them!))
I am worthless, best ignored, ((Many of the world’s great thinkers have lived with bipolar disorder))
and just like the rest of my ilk. ((Symptoms can vary widely between individuals. Medications that work for one person, may not do well for others.))
It’s all in my head, it’s all in my head. ((Recent studies point to the possible implication of the neural clusters in the gut as being implicated. And this is not imaginary.))
Just wait it out and it will all go away. ((Despite the episodic nature, the disease tends to get worse over time if left untreated.))
This post is in response to Day 14 of the Health Activist Writers Challenge: “Write a poem” where every line is a lie or misconception about your health condition.