Tedious Advice

Posted on June 2, 2003 in Attitudes

Someone explained to me that the problem between me and someone else was that we were different styles of writers. I saw it differently: He made faces, he turned his back on me, he made it plain that he didn’t consider my point of view worth considering.

All my life I could plainly see that people were different from me. My struggle has been to keep from feeling alone, to simply be myself even though others preferred to isolate me as a weird jerk. “Goofy” is how my last boss talked about me behind my back. When I left that job, I vowed that it would be my last. And it was. Now no one wants me for just about anything.

Telling me that I am different and I “just have to understand that” is tedious. I wish they’d make the effort to make it clear to others that I was just different and that it was OK. My loneliness would be less if the advice others needed to hear just didn’t keep coming back to me who already lives for that.