Posted on July 30, 2002 in Misc
I decided to remove the ratings from this page. I was getting mostly favorable ratings from my reviewers, but some clown came in and clicked on “I hate it” six times. I have a hard time remembering that the balance of good comments outweigh the bad. A nasty remark pierces me. I get to feeling like I shouldn’t write anymore. Best for me to go on blind. The rating system just isn’t constructive criticism any more than some fool who writes “fuck you” in the guestbook or the comments tells me a thing about the quality of what I am doing, but a lot about the coward who wrote it.
You can still go to Bloghop and rate me if you wish.
Don’t worry. The raNtings will continue.
Posted on July 29, 2002 in Writing
I have to feel that the tips of my pen cut the paper, like I’m ritually scarring the page.
Posted on July 29, 2002 in PTSD Reflections
I hate it when some people go rolling out their “past” like a heavily retouched wallet photo. “Recovered memories” seem gruesomely unreal because they are unreal.
Posted on July 29, 2002 in Whimsies
(Post fondly dedicated to Warpster93, a weaver and perceiver of shadows)
Posted on July 29, 2002 in Quizzes
I’m a free man! Well, nearly.
Posted on July 28, 2002 in Childhood Dreams Reflections
Dreams are a crazy salad of all kinds of things.
Posted on July 27, 2002 in The Orange
Summer is the season of death in Southern California….
Posted on July 27, 2002 in Mailbox
I remember the days when I could open my email box and find actual, personal messages ….
Posted on July 26, 2002 in Encounters
“What’s his rush? Or what right does he think he’s protecting?”
Posted on July 26, 2002 in Dreams
I’m hiking in a national park, one by a large lake or the sea. I’m alone. The trail I’m on is much too rough for Lynn. I creep along the middle slope of a long cliff that is the color of Columbian coffee grounds. The going is by hand and foot. Trail conditions are uncertain. I get to a place where I can’t go any further. Two long fins of rock and deep crevasses block the path. It has taken me hours to get to this spot. A couple of guys come up behind me and grumble about the obstruction. I look around and see a rough path winding down the cooled magma to the canyon floor. There’s a park ranger, some 1000 feet or so down the hill from me. He waves. I scramble down to meet the ranger, arriving instantly. The ranger is out here to fix a chair lift. He can’t fix it because he needs a part. He waves again and leaves to get it. The two guys follow me as I begin to explore a deserted marina. The chair lift takes you across a strait to some islands. “This is Lake Powell,” I think. [But it’s not. The rocks should be red sandstone, not lava flows.] This marina is somewhere up the lake from park HQ. You can only reach it by water (in season) and trail. I go to stand at a point. One of the two guys makes a comment about Clinton. As I look across the water — from Arizona through Utah and into Nevada [impossible from my presumed point], a haze lifts. There’s a fabulous island out there, in Nevada, a place covered by trailers, neon signs, and casinos which are designated by clusters of multi-colored balloons. I’ve heard of this place, but I don’t give it a name. You get there by taking the chair lift or by approaching by automobile from the other side. There’s more than one island out there. I look across the water into the living room of a mobile home. It’s dark inside and the glass is further obscured by the reflection of the corner of a white wall that should be somewhere between me and the mobile home. But there’s only greenish water. I turn away, noticing a pair of bubble gum machines, one selling candy-coated peanuts for 20 cents a handful, the other something else — raw nuts I think — for 50 cents. I check my change and see that I only have pennies. The two fellows catch up to me. One tells me that he came here by the upper trail because his wives thought the exercise would be good for him. He comments again about Clinton and I realize that he isn’t a Clinton hater. I ask him where he is from and he gives me a name that sounds like “Keafton”. “That’s in Utah,” I guess. He confirms that it is. We walk back down the canyon to the park HQ. The trip by the levellower canyon trail takes much less time than the crawling along the cliff face did. We are all pleasantly surprised.
Posted on July 26, 2002 in Misc
I wish I could sponsor someone for the Blogathan, but we are pinched thanks in part to three of my five chronic diseases getting the better of me this last spring. I’m feeling much better and being a very good boy now, but it makes me a little sad not to be able to participate as a sponsor for someone. (I’m leaving the chore of putting up a lot of topics to the younger folks.) If you plan on participating, feel free to comment here. Two that I know about are:
Good luck! May these links bring you both lots of sponsors!