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Locker Room Talk and Stigma

Posted on April 30, 2017 in Bipolar Disorder Clueless Oafs Encounters Frustration Gyms Stigma Violence Writing/Darkness

I so wanted to tell him that I had bipolar disorder

How Bipolar Disorder Affects My Home Life

Posted on April 29, 2017 in Abuse Anxiety Bipolar Disorder

I feel sorry for my wife.

My Favorite Thing About Myself?

Posted on April 27, 2017 in Humility Reflections

I am shy about talking about the good things which identify me and present me as a person.


A garden

Posted on April 25, 2017 in Routine Writing Exercises

square957The cactus on my deck stand still for most of the year, with no expressions except their green sides and thorns. I buy amaryllis, tulips, and daffodils in the winter, but they flower and die so I toss them out and wait. Then, with no prompting by me except some MiracleGro, the first cactus flowers appear. One more I go out and find a surprise in a red or pink or yellow bloom. The exaltations keep happening through December. I simply watch them appear and then disappear to be succeeded by a new blossom as if they decided on a schedule.


Healthline Bipolar Blog of 2017

Posted on April 25, 2017 in Web Sites

Hi Joel,

Healthline would like to congratulate you on making our list of the Best Bipolar Disorder Blogs of 2017!

Our editors carefully selected the most up-to-date, informative, and inspiring blogs that aim to uplift their readers through education and personal stories. We’re glad to have you on the list!

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Seeking Help

Posted on April 24, 2017 in Depression Psychotropics Writing/Darkness

square956I woke up one morning, turned on my side, and said to Lynn “I’m sick.” Oh, I had sought help before this, many times from therapists and, one time, a psychiatrist. Encouraged by my mother, I tried the bootstrap approach where you somehow reached into your soul and made the depression go away.

What had preceded this bout? Several months of going from town to town speaking about the war in Yugoslavia and how people could support the peace movement over there. The subject had worn me down, eroded my belief in myself. I stopped returning phone calls, stopped believing in my own intelligence, my worthiness to be human. The period came to a soft but painful landing like running into a beanbag chair and feeling nothing of the collision except a rash of pain. I was not rested. I slept badly. I stayed up in the night and stared at the ceiling. I did not even have the energy to hate my condition. It was as if I did not have a proper body, just a jelly log that could do nothing but lie in bed. Who could pull themselves out of this by sheer force of will when there was no will to have.

I had heard about this new drug, Prozac, and I wanted to try it. Kaiser required that I make the appointment myself, so as Lynn watched, I picked up the phone and arranged to see the psychiatric triage nurse. I feared that she would see me as a fake, but she passed me on to the psychiatrist who prescribed Prozac.

I was cured the next day. Uh oh.


A Time I Shared Something Personal

Posted on April 23, 2017 in Depression Humiliation Privacy

Trust was lost.


Cutup Speech — There May Be a Poem in Here?

Posted on April 23, 2017 in Originality & Creativity Poems

everyone here is name anyone


Just After Dawn

Posted on April 22, 2017 in Geology Recent Writing Exercises

We had gone on one of those boats that take you to where the lava flows and drips into the sea


Events Before My First Episode

Posted on April 21, 2017 in ADD Childhood Depression Writing/Darkness

I was a tangerine.

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