The Milk of Paradise

Posted on April 5, 2004 in Blogging Depression Gratitude

And all who heard should see them there,

And all should cry, Beware! Beware!

His flashing eyes, his floating hair!

Weave a circle round him thrice,

And close your eyes with holy dread,

For he on honey-dew hath fed,

And drunk the milk of Paradise.


Samuel Taylor Coleridge, Kubla Khan

Every now and then it comes down to this: people drop you from their blog rolls, stop visiting, stop leaving comments. You leave messages at their blogs and they pretend like you don’t visit. You send email and they don’t answer. You are persona non grata and they don’t explain why.

And by this you know that they never saw you as you were and probably still don’t.

You look at the shattered doll they left behind that has your face on it and you have no clue.

Even a “fuck you” would help.