The Closet

Posted on April 23, 2004 in Hope and Joy Journals & Notebooks Myths & Mysticism

Why the closet? I asked in my journal yesterday. So we’d concentrate on the work of self-reconstruction. If we go to the temple, there’s an inclination to perform, to want to prove our holiness to others. We defeat ourselves, our growth, our healing through this.

The hypocrite goes to the temple where he can wave flags. The closeted man, alone with the Universe, thinks and reforms.

Reform is what happens when you take apart the engine of the mind and observe the faulty portions of the mechanism. You put it back together, you reconfigure what is already there using the parts you have on hand because that’s all you have, that brain. It’s not a violent process by itself. That comes when others attempt to stop the reform. They claim that it is the reform that made them violent but they stoked the anger themselves. They try to drag you to the Temple for an inquisition. They will always manage to prop something up there and they will call it you.

For a day or two, you may feel like angles and planes, a blue-black geometric figure. Then it will pass until it comes again.