The Loneliness Between Therapist Visits

Posted on April 19, 2005 in Depression Memory

A problem with having world enough and time is that you have lots of time to root things up from your memory and think about them. And you come to realize strange truths: you don’t want to be alone. Company does not make you feel better. So if none of this cures you, what’s the problem? Then you get to matters which cannot be talked about outside your therapist’s office. And the loneliness while you wait for your appointment is so much worse.

I will be all right. I want to live. I’m just in a space and I can’t talk about it even with my friends because they won’t understand how to take it.