Posted on February 2, 2011 in Bipolar Disorder Insurance
Lipstick Chronicles is mourning the passing of Melissa Mia Hall who died because she could not afford to see a doctor. “She knew she needed medical care,” writes Sarah Strohmeyer, “but feared a visit would result in a lengthy hospital stay that would “ruin her credit rating.”
Twenty years ago I worked at a company with the most minimal of health plans and employers who believed that they had a right to scrutinize every claim the insurance paid out. I knew I was sick — anxiety clutched my chest, depression kept me from sleeping, and, for brief intervals, I felt the boundless impulsiveness of mania. But my employer did not believe in “wasting his money” on a plan that included mental health benefits. So in these pre-parity days, I held on as best I could in a company that kept me in layoff after layoff. Pressure mounted and in the end, after the company folded, I responded by going into mania and volunteering to work in former Yugoslavia.
Several things would have been possible if I had had single-payer health insurance. First, I could have quit that awful job and educated myself towards a new, more appropriate career. Second, I could have received the psychiatric care that I needed. In 1994, while on my wife’s plan, I did receive some, though I was misdiagnosed for 11 years. I’m afraid that it was too late for me, though. Though therapists have tried to push me back into working again — always imagining a world where an intelligent, fifty three year old man with 16 years of unemployment can go back to school and start again as a professional — I’ve been locked out by my illness and by economic realities.
Like Melanie I was afraid of what would happen to my credit rating, so I did not do what I needed to do for my health. I couldn’t afford decent therapy or psychiatry. And it cost me my credit rating for a time, my salary, and my dignity.