Pax Nortona – A Blog by Joel Sax
From the Land of the Lost Blunderbuss
Month: September 2002
A 9-11 Sabbath
Posted on September 10, 2002 in The Home Front
From midnight Pacific time until the following midnight, I shall watch no televised broadcasts, read no newspapers, listen to no radio broadcasts of any kind, read no mail (including email), chat with no one on IRC, and visit no websites.
Dream
Posted on September 10, 2002 in Dreams
I attend some kind of depressive support group. There’s a woman who has to leave early because she has to walk home and for some reason that isn’t well explained at all, I can’t drive her home. The group leader hands out these hot packaged dinners. I take mine home (the one where I grew up), go into my bedroom, and eat it. It has just two items: a thick chicken broth and green peas. My mother comes into the room, takes the dinner from me, and fishes out a piece of chicken with her fingers. She asks me when I am going to get off the medications. I tell her, for the nth time, that this is a lifetime thing, that they are part of my life from here on out. I scold her for eating my dinner which has been carefully designed for my nutritional needs. She excuses herself by saying that she didn’t know and leaves the room. I get on the net to read email. I hear her and my father talking in the other room. Seems that I have just lost some job. They say that they are proud that I am blackmailing my former boss for $50,000 and am using the business InterNet connection to do it. I cry that I am doing no such thing: this is my own InterNet connection and I refuse to blackmail anyone.
I hate asking but….
Posted on September 9, 2002 in Lucre
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Check out the Changes
Posted on September 9, 2002 in Site News
You may have noticed that I’ve done things to the links page, the archives, and the main index. (I’ll be fixing up skins sooner or later.) Please comment on how you like these things! (Cringe) Thank you for your input.
A Visit With Frances
Posted on September 9, 2002 in Encounters
She often swirled silently in a narcotic euphoria, bumped over some stone in the way of her memory, and, when prompted by the right question, flowed rapidly, telling us about her grandchildren and the childhood that she, alone of those present in the yellow-tinted hospital room, had seen.
Another Piece of Shrapnel
Posted on September 9, 2002 in Anxiety
I’ve been spattered by reminders of the biggest missed opportunity in my life and feeling helpless about it. Yesterday, we heard from Frances that Lynn’s sister Carey is pregnant. Today, I meet women taking constitutionals with their new babies, pregnant women who have to sit while the Tully’s barristes fix their coffee, and an elderly couple who use a stroller to carry their things and give their grinning pug dog a rest when he gets tired of walking.
Having Choices
Posted on September 9, 2002 in Sexuality
Red’s actually touched on one of those vague life issues that I’ve been trying to put into words for a long time.
Witness to the Effects of a Spiritual Fragmentation Grenade
Posted on September 8, 2002 in IRC/Chat Peace Reflections
I’ve grown sick because the human rights issues that I have championed over the years are being selectively employed to justify the ultimate human rights abuse, which is murder.
